Chris Kyle in 2012: ‘The Ideal Thing Would Be if I Knew the Number of Lives I Saved’

NN HOST Jim Erickson ░░░░░░░░ in an e mail ░░░░░░░░ you Mr Kyle how ░░░░░░░░ unconfirmed kills do you ░░░░░░░░ you have or were ░░░░░░░░ of yours confirmed Did ░░░░░░░░ ever train with the ░░░░░░░░ white feather rifle KYLE ░░░░░░░░ I never used that ░░░░░░░░ and as far as ░░░░░░░░ unconfirmed kills you never ░░░░░░░░ those It s there ░░░░░░░░ no point in trying ░░░░░░░░ keep track of what ░░░░░░░░ have been or might ░░░░░░░░ been You re just ░░░░░░░░ your time And your ░░░░░░░░ thing is you re ░░░░░░░░ there to try to ░░░░░░░░ you know these bad ░░░░░░░░ off the streets and ░░░░░░░░ it safer for your ░░░░░░░░ and allow some more ░░░░░░░░ your guys to be ░░░░░░░░ to make it home ░░░░░░░░ mean the ideal thing ░░░░░░░░ I knew the number ░░░░░░░░ lives I d saved ░░░░░░░░ that s something I ░░░░░░░░ love to be known ░░░░░░░░ But you can t ░░░░░░░░ that NN HOST What ░░░░░░░░ your reaction at the ░░░░░░░░ to a kill KYLE ░░░░░░░░ mean when you re ░░░░░░░░ at these people you ░░░░░░░░ not thinking of them ░░░░░░░░ or less as people ░░░░░░░░ re a target because ░░░░░░░░ know most of the ░░░░░░░░ they re there actively ░░░░░░░░ trying to kill your ░░░░░░░░ so you re trying ░░░░░░░░ see yourself as a ░░░░░░░░ angel to protect the ░░░░░░░░ on the ground who ░░░░░░░░ in danger and you ░░░░░░░░ have to dehumanize it ░░░░░░░░ remove yourself from it ░░░░░░░░ you don t want ░░░░░░░░ think about you know ░░░░░░░░ they have a family ░░░░░░░░ s their job and ░░░░░░░░ have they done You ░░░░░░░░ just trying to in ░░░░░░░░ mind think I want ░░░░░░░░ guy to be able ░░░░░░░░ go home my guy ░░░░░░░░ want him to safely ░░░░░░░░ able to go home ░░░░░░░░ I m going to ░░░░░░░░ out this target to ░░░░░░░░ him to do that ░░░░░░░░ HOST Chris Kyle what ░░░░░░░░ your first confirmed kill ░░░░░░░░ We were in the ░░░░░░░░ ahead of the marines ░░░░░░░░ we were just trying ░░░░░░░░ soften up some of ░░░░░░░░ locations for em We ░░░░░░░░ t going to make ░░░░░░░░ safe but just try ░░░░░░░░ make it you know ░░░░░░░░ little as possible add ░░░░░░░░ to it And while ░░░░░░░░ the city the marines ░░░░░░░░ to approach the people ░░░░░░░░ out to show that ░░░░░░░░ were supportive of the ░░░░░░░░ they weren t going ░░░░░░░░ fight and at that ░░░░░░░░ there was a woman ░░░░░░░░ came out and she ░░░░░░░░ something in her hands ░░░░░░░░ was watching her I ░░░░░░░░ relaying back to my ░░░░░░░░ everything that she had ░░░░░░░░ what she was doing ░░░░░░░░ informed me that it ░░░░░░░░ a Chinese grenade and ░░░░░░░░ me I had to ░░░░░░░░ the shot because she ░░░░░░░░ approaching the marines At ░░░░░░░░ point I d never ░░░░░░░░ anyone so it was ░░░░░░░░ made me pause but ░░░░░░░░ the fact that it ░░░░░░░░ not a man it ░░░░░░░░ difficult So we tried ░░░░░░░░ radio the marines to ░░░░░░░░ them handle it I ░░░░░░░░ t want to have ░░░░░░░░ be the one to ░░░░░░░░ the woman s life ░░░░░░░░ couldn t raise them ░░░░░░░░ the radio so I ░░░░░░░░ up having to take ░░░░░░░░ shot But in my ░░░░░░░░ she she was dead ░░░░░░░░ She was either going ░░░░░░░░ kill herself by the ░░░░░░░░ being a suicide bomber ░░░░░░░░ she was going to ░░░░░░░░ by my bullet And ░░░░░░░░ would rather shoot her ░░░░░░░░ to sit there and ░░░░░░░░ her blow up the ░░░░░░░░